where to begin......ah end of chemo!
our beloved Theresa
the last day of the heavy guns November 2011, chemo with Herceptin continued til November of 2012
Ally, me, Suzanne and Dioxa
She started tasting food!!!!Tuesday, October 15, 2013
Journey never complete!
Its been a year and a half since the last post.....the biggest reason was I couldn't pull picture from my computer and I just couldn't post without photo's so I will try and go backwards for awhile and then, start again from now......
where to begin......ah end of chemo!
our beloved Theresa
the last day of the heavy guns November 2011, chemo with Herceptin continued til November of 2012
She started tasting food!!!!
where to begin......ah end of chemo!
our beloved Theresathe last day of the heavy guns November 2011, chemo with Herceptin continued til November of 2012She started tasting food!!!!
Wednesday, May 30, 2012
Time has a way of healing thing!
There's been a long lag between postings.... In October of last year Suzanne and I took a break from our relationship. Truthfully it was a all out falling out. No one has any idea the amount of stress that builds when someone you care about gets cancer. There were those days I just found myself staring out at the Mountains, if you'd ask me what I was thinking chances are I wouldn't have answered or maybe you'd have gotten that blank stare. My world had been turned upside down. Truthfully I couldn't believe this was happening. You can't help but think about how your life will be without them, will you still be able to breath, will there be joy left......truthfully I didn't know and even to this day I couldn't tell you for sure. But what I've learned is.....
Life is about MOMENTS!!! Not about the future but about right now, right here. Suzanne and I have been working really hard at putting our relationship back together. To get back joy and laughter. Most days we are very good at it. Other days......well I just keep trying......lets just say you learn a lot about yourself in these moments. You learn that the things you thought were important aren't, that life is so short , that there is true love and that relationships can be repaired with a lot of honesty, love and hard work.
To all my friends that have endured this breakup and repair, I love you and appreciate more than I can ever express your friendships, love, laughter and many a bended ear. You are truly in my heart always.
Thank you.
Cat
Life is about MOMENTS!!! Not about the future but about right now, right here. Suzanne and I have been working really hard at putting our relationship back together. To get back joy and laughter. Most days we are very good at it. Other days......well I just keep trying......lets just say you learn a lot about yourself in these moments. You learn that the things you thought were important aren't, that life is so short , that there is true love and that relationships can be repaired with a lot of honesty, love and hard work.
To all my friends that have endured this breakup and repair, I love you and appreciate more than I can ever express your friendships, love, laughter and many a bended ear. You are truly in my heart always.
Thank you.
Cat
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
Old Friends
Suzanne's family visit
Love her in this turbine!Anthony and Julio relaxing with Clifford
Chemo GangSisters like no others
Family!!!Suzanne and Ally
Dr. Scott with a present from Michelle
Julio loose in the Cancer wig room
Moments like no others.Benefit for Suzanne
The GangSuzanne and Harbor
Bev and Suzanne
Julio and Anthony
My Nephew Clint and his girlfriend KarlySaturday, September 17, 2011
During Marks Visit there was Fun to be Had
A ride up to Gold Creek
I'm thinking he's having a good time?
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
Can't keep a good women down
Mark and Suzanne
Carolyn, Suzanne and Ally
Anthony and Julio on Skype from London
The Hazards of Chemo
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
Voice from Suzanne on Chemotherapy
Hello everyone!!
Since this is my first posting I want to say how much I have appreciated all the out pouring of love and kindness I have received from the beginning. I would have to say a girl could not do this alone cause honestly chemo at times isn't much fun. I have received three out of eight treatments and so far have done OK until this week. I have the dreaded experience of nothing tasting good to eat. If you know me you'll know how important food is to me. Mostly food has a very metallic flavor to everything and I thought oh my goodness this isn't good. It has been difficult to want to eat and keep my energy up. Energy being very pivotal in my being able to still work at my deli job at Super 1. This food thing went on for several days and I must say I felt very discouraged by this. But like they say this too will pass and I knew I was on the up swing when I was able to eat some lentils and rice cat made. Don't get me wrong I have been dreaming of food.....like Hatch green chilies , Scallops from the road stand in New England, Indian food from the UK and Thai food in Cambodia. All these foods of course include my beloved family and friends and traveling. Hay look, if you can't eat anything good you need to dream about it and dream big time, it really helps.
The other interesting thing is how I entered this process with my sense of self and then I notice I'm involved in a new process with this chemo. Sometimes the process is all consuming and I forget to just remember this is just a place on the road and it won't always be this way. How I am trying to counter act this is I just sat on the stoop and watched Stuwe (our wired haired dachshund puppy) and Max the Cat play. As simple as it sounds it was very fun and normal and relaxing. So it is an interesting journey to say the least.
I have been enjoying the blog spot that Cat has so lovingly put together. Left to my own devises I would not have been able to have pulled it off. The pictures are so fun and I have loved all the comments. It really lifts my spirits a lot. And don't you just love all the chemo girls!! They have been hanging in there with me from the beginning which I feel very blessed by. My favorite 9 year old Madelaine came this last time which was great. I wanted her to see what I was going through so that she won't worry about me. I loved having her great kid energy right there. Madelaine was a big trooper that day.
Lots of other wonderful things have happened I have received lots of great gift like this Ipad I'm writing you on from Tracy and Patty. I have gotten lots of great jewelry and would say my BLING factor has greatly improved. I have received so many significant religious items from my friends in Texas, New Mexico and North Carolina who have been looking out for my spiritual well being. I have gotten tokens and gifts some being re-gifts that I had given years ago, and I have gotten other tokens as a way of keeping connected to those who love me that are far away. I have been very blown away by everyone and how in their own way have made a personal connection to me. It is so wonderful and if I had the right words to describe it would probably have to be a new word. Calls have come in too which i have not always been able to return......but please know how much this means to me. Honestly, a girl just can't do this on her own....Please know that I do feel incredible blessed and held up by all the amazing people who surround me and know that I adore you all. You are always on my mind and in my HEART even on the bad days......the thoughts of you helps me get through it. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. So when this is all said and done I will gladly except any and all invitation to meet you at your favorite eating place and order everything off the menu...I'm not kidding!!! So until then eat something yummy for me and know that I LOVE YOU!!!
Since this is my first posting I want to say how much I have appreciated all the out pouring of love and kindness I have received from the beginning. I would have to say a girl could not do this alone cause honestly chemo at times isn't much fun. I have received three out of eight treatments and so far have done OK until this week. I have the dreaded experience of nothing tasting good to eat. If you know me you'll know how important food is to me. Mostly food has a very metallic flavor to everything and I thought oh my goodness this isn't good. It has been difficult to want to eat and keep my energy up. Energy being very pivotal in my being able to still work at my deli job at Super 1. This food thing went on for several days and I must say I felt very discouraged by this. But like they say this too will pass and I knew I was on the up swing when I was able to eat some lentils and rice cat made. Don't get me wrong I have been dreaming of food.....like Hatch green chilies , Scallops from the road stand in New England, Indian food from the UK and Thai food in Cambodia. All these foods of course include my beloved family and friends and traveling. Hay look, if you can't eat anything good you need to dream about it and dream big time, it really helps.
The other interesting thing is how I entered this process with my sense of self and then I notice I'm involved in a new process with this chemo. Sometimes the process is all consuming and I forget to just remember this is just a place on the road and it won't always be this way. How I am trying to counter act this is I just sat on the stoop and watched Stuwe (our wired haired dachshund puppy) and Max the Cat play. As simple as it sounds it was very fun and normal and relaxing. So it is an interesting journey to say the least.
I have been enjoying the blog spot that Cat has so lovingly put together. Left to my own devises I would not have been able to have pulled it off. The pictures are so fun and I have loved all the comments. It really lifts my spirits a lot. And don't you just love all the chemo girls!! They have been hanging in there with me from the beginning which I feel very blessed by. My favorite 9 year old Madelaine came this last time which was great. I wanted her to see what I was going through so that she won't worry about me. I loved having her great kid energy right there. Madelaine was a big trooper that day.
Lots of other wonderful things have happened I have received lots of great gift like this Ipad I'm writing you on from Tracy and Patty. I have gotten lots of great jewelry and would say my BLING factor has greatly improved. I have received so many significant religious items from my friends in Texas, New Mexico and North Carolina who have been looking out for my spiritual well being. I have gotten tokens and gifts some being re-gifts that I had given years ago, and I have gotten other tokens as a way of keeping connected to those who love me that are far away. I have been very blown away by everyone and how in their own way have made a personal connection to me. It is so wonderful and if I had the right words to describe it would probably have to be a new word. Calls have come in too which i have not always been able to return......but please know how much this means to me. Honestly, a girl just can't do this on her own....Please know that I do feel incredible blessed and held up by all the amazing people who surround me and know that I adore you all. You are always on my mind and in my HEART even on the bad days......the thoughts of you helps me get through it. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. So when this is all said and done I will gladly except any and all invitation to meet you at your favorite eating place and order everything off the menu...I'm not kidding!!! So until then eat something yummy for me and know that I LOVE YOU!!!
Third Chemo Treatment
Teresa Suzanne's wonderful Nurse
SuzanneMadelaine and Suzanne
Dr Scott and Suzanne
Judy White
Sweet Suzanne
My heart throb!!
Sherry Lee After we got home even Abby came to lay her hands on Suzanne
Pamela, Leslie, Carolyn
Dioica and Suzanne
Wednesday August 17, 2011 was Suzanne's third chemo treatment. Teresa her nurse slowed the treatment down a little and Suzanne tolerated the infusions much better. As you can see from the photos she is doing great. The Photos this time are of all that come to visit her for her treatments. Ally was there later but we missed a photo op.
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